Simulan Mo ng Tama

Gusto ko lang umiyak ngayon sa Panginoon at humihing ng tawad sa kanya. Gusto kong lang siyang pasalamatan ngayon sa dinami-dami ng bagay na patuloy niyang pinapakita sa'kin.

Simula't simula ng buhay ko, hindi ako karapat-dapat pero nandito pa rin ako, nagpapatuloy.

Start things right kapatid. Huwag kang pangunahan ng takot o kung ano. Simulan mo ng tama ang lahat ng gagawin mo. At syempre, simulan mo lahat sa Kanya.

Simulan mo sa ganon bago pa maging huli ang lahat. Pero sana, tandaan mo, positibo man o negatibo ang maging resulta, palagi ka lang bumalik sa Kanya.

Minsan talaga Mahirap lang ma-Gets, Gets mo?

Photo not mine.

Ito na naman ako. Binubuhay uli ang blog na 'to.

Nakakatuwa lang si God, patuloy Niya pinapakita 'yung mga defect mo at the same time, patuloy ka din Niya pinapaalalahanan na mas malaki ang kaya Niyang gawin sa buhay mo.

Ang dami lang nangyari. Yung iba pa dun, hanggang ngayon hindi pa din ayos o wala pa din na linaw. Pero isa lang 'yung natanto ko ng totoo, yung bagay na gagawin mo dahil sa pagmamahal mo kay God, minsan ang dating sa ibang tao, kahibangan. Maapektuhan ka talaga sa mga naririnig mo, lalo na at asahan mo na yung mas magsasalita yung mga tao na malapit sa'yo.

Masyado tayong segurista sa lahat ng bagay. Aminin natin nyan. Kumbaga sa termino ng mundo, konti lang ang risk-taker. Kaya nga naimbento ang statistics at math para i-measure yan ih (na-segway pa talaga). Pero minsan, ang gusto talaga ng Lord, magkaroon lang tayo ng faith sa Kanya. Imagine Niyo, paano kaya 'yung mga karamihan sa mga taga-sunod Niya, nakapagpatuloy kahit wala sila na kahit anong possessions dito sa mundo? God will Provide. Pero minsan, ang gusto Niya, we just let Him do it IN HIS WAY. Madalas kasi, dumidiskarte tayo ng hindi naka-ayon sa kanya.

Hindi ko nagagawa lahat 'to. Pinapatutunan lang din ni God sa akin. Ang sakin lang, wag tayong maging secure sa mga bagay na dito mo lang sa mundo makikita. There are far more important things, katulad na lang ng mga souls of men na hindi pa nakakakilala sa Kanya.

Everyone are called but only few responds. Sana magrespond din tayo sa kung ano ang tinatawag Niya sa iyo.

May problema at problema na kahaharapin ka, ang gusto Niya mas maging matatag ka sa Kanya; na mas tingnan mo Siya.  May mga tao na magsasalita at magsasalita, pero mas gusto Niya na mas marinig mo yung Boses Niya.

Hindi ko nagagawa lahat, pero by His grace lang din kung bakit ina-allow ni God na makita ko 'yung mga bagay bagay na ito at naniniwala ako na para din ito sa growth ko sa Kanya at para mas maging dependent ako sa Panginoon.

Salamat sa Inyo Dakilang Ama. Mahal po kita. Tulungan po nawa Ninyo ako at naniniwala ako na mas madami po Kayong magagawa kesa sa sarili ko.

Questions and Contentment: Bakit kaya?

Ang tagal ko na din na hindi nakakapaglagay ng blog ko dito. Madami lang nangyari: nagpahinga, kumain, nagtrabaho, at kung anu-ano pa. Kung may nagbabasa man ng mga blogs ko, siguro 'yung iba nagtataka, "Aba, nag-Tagalog" , wala lang. Katulad nga nung sinabi ko dati, lahat naman ng nilalagay ko dito, impromptu. Wala na akong ginagawang edit-edit. Mas gusto ko lang mas ma-express siguro yung mga nasa isip ko kaya ganun.

Anyways, ang dami lang na nasa isip ko ngayon: blessings, problems, love, spirituality, basta yung mga yun. Nanghihinayang lang din ako. Parang ang dami kasing nagbago. Alam mo 'yung pakiramdam na 'yung mga kaibigan mo, parang iba na? Actually, isang bagay yan sa mga babae. Lumaki kasi ako na "one-of-the-boys", meaning mas nakaka-close ko 'yung mga lalaki. Siguro kasi boyish din kasi ang kilos ko, tapos 'yung mga trip nila, yun din. What I've noticed din kasi is that 'yung samahan ng mga lalaki, kahit anong mangyari, mawala man 'yung isa ng matagal o hindi, pag nagkita-kita parang walang pinagbago. Parehas yung hampas at asaran na meron sila. Ang napansin ko lang sa ilan sa mga kaibigan kong babae, parang pag nawala ka lang sa sirkulasyon nila ng, let's say, ilang linggo, parang hindi ka na nila kilala? Ok lang sana kung 'yung mga kaibigan mo na masasabi mo na hindi pa nasa Panginoon, ang nakakalungkot, kahit kasi yung mga "Sis" mo, ganun din. Napansin ko yan dito sa church na pinupuntahan ko ngayon. Ayoko makaramdam ng ganito, kaso hindi ko maiiwasan masaktan at magtampo. 

Nilipat kasi nila ako sa isang mission area mula dun sa main. After nun, (tapos naging in-a-relationship pa ako), parang iba na sila: as in silang lahat halos. Ayoko makaramdam ng ganito kasi ang lagi kong pinapaalala sa sarili ko na hindi dapat ako tumingin sa tao pero dapat sa Panginoon lang ako nakatingin. Pero nung nakaraan, yung isa sa tinuring ko na ate sa church, parang ang cold na lang bigla. Yung dating na halos beso-beso kayo, ngayon, ngiti lang. Ni hindi na nga nag-uusap. Nakakalungkot lang talaga. Ayokong ma-stumble. 

Nakakalungkot lang talaga. Ang dami ko kasi gusto sabihin sa kanya (maging dun sa iba), pero wala. Walang nakakahalata na gusto ko na din umiyak. Dinadalangin ko lang din sa Panginoon na makita ko din kung ano din yung blindspot ko. Ako lang ba ang nag-iisip nun o ano? Paano ba mabebreak yun?

Maging dependent lang talaga ako kay God. Mas maenjoy ko lang sana 'yung love at joy na talagang siya lang naman yung makakapagpuno sa buhay na pinagkatiwala niya. Maging kuntento sa kanya alone. 

Madami man akong tanong, alam ko nandyan si God. Madami man nangyari, alam ko hindi Niya ako pababayaan.

Dinadalangin ko lang na sana, tulungan niya ko na mag-extend pa din ng love and understanding sa puso ko sa lahat ng likha Niya.

Start from the Top

Do you ever felt that feeling wherein you're guilty of something that you find it very hard to try on things again? And the thing that you must do is to do everything from the start? I believe you felt this before.

I can truly feel this sensation much especially whenever I commit sin. Yes, I still did things knowing or unknowing to me. It is our nature. But God want us to be cleanse from our sin and not to dwell in them.

And I'm struggling so much in denying myself. But I also find delight as well on not doing things that won't give glory for the Lord. Kinda hard but truly enjoyable.

I really don't know what to say for now. I'm quite on my down moments right now. But by God's sufficient grace, I definitely know that I am in His Divine Hands. 

Refresh. Restart. Press your reset button and do everything for God's glory. 

Too Quiet you Think? PRAY

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, long-suffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law."

-Galatians 5:22-23

Have you ever felt that God in some of your moments was too quiet? That He wasn't listening to you? Or that He's not answering? I felt those so many times! And we usually grumble and let irritation strikes us out. 

But God always teach and reminds me that I should not worry and let the negativity sink in me. God wanted me to be more dependent on Him and to PRAY more.

You'll ask, "what should I pray?". Well, you could pray anything to God! But what I learned was that despite on not hearing Him, negative outcomes or shortcoming, we should be thankful to Him.

And no matter what, let the Spirit filled your life.

 Listen to Him more than to yourself.

Struggles and Sensation

"There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it."

-1 Corinthians 10:13

Being a follower doesn't mean that you're already in hay or lying your head on a bed of roses. It wasn't just the reds and violets on flowers and roses. It also includes the thorns and imperfection that is in the package.

I don't grew up on a Christian family. I have the secular lifestyle before I committ my life to Christ. I let the world cave in in me and go with the flow in it thinking that I'm happy about it. But God, in many points in my life, made me realize that the true happiness would only be find in His presence and the only rest is in Him.

On that moment, I let God take me over. But it wasn't the end of all the struggles. I just noticed that it was just the start.

There are certain point in my life that my flesh seek the previous secular lifestyle that I have. And there are moment that you would really like to give in on that sensation that the enemy flows in your veins that made me feel guilty and worthless.

But God reminded me that this things happens because of two things: (1) He allow this like Job as a test of faith; (2) this is consequence of your sins.

I know that this sensation were the consequences of my previous sins. And I know that this temptation is common to all of us but God let you face this because He knew that we'll escape it, with Him throughout the way.

I'm not perfect. I'm a sinner. But God by His grace gave me so much opportunity in living accordingly to His will.

I'm facing struggles. All of us face this endeavors, but the Scriptures said we "can do anything through Christ who gives me strength" (Phil.4:13).

I'm praying to all of you who face challenges and struggles today. Just to let you know, God is with you. Be faithful and keep on praying.

May God be with you in all times.

Something Worth to Give Up : Comfort Zones

It's been a long time that I didn't visit my blog. Honestly, I really have a hard time, thinking on what should I wrote here on a daily basis. I want to share all of my experiences that God has been doing in my life; on how great He is and on how awesome His plans is.

Well, to kick it off, I would like to share one thing that God has been teaching me this past few months: to give up and step out of my comfort zone. I know that most of you know how hard it is to get out to a place wherein you already knew the flow and the interior of the system? I think a good illustration here is leaving your place in order to move to another place. I remember a scene in a certain animation film wherein the protagonist take a turnaround on his house (and lift the house with so many balloons! Just kidding XD ). 

Why do we have hard time of letting go things? Because we learn to love them and we have been very comfortable to this things that we find it hard to let it go. But sometimes, we didn't notice that these things hinders us in making God put all His plans unto us. The problem as well is we make plans out of accordance of what He wants.

Most of us have doubts and fears if they thought of getting out of their comfort zone. But God said that we should trust Him and don't depend on what we understand; that it is His will that we should take. Proverbs 3: 5 says " Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding (emphasis mine)". Isn't it wonderful to put all your trust in God? And he said not just to trust him partially, but to trust in him "with all of our heart". 

That's God's promise to us. How are we able to trust Him? He answered it in the following verse. Verse 6 says "Seek his will in all you do and He will show you which path to take." In order to trust God, seek his will, not your own will. 

God wanted us to be more dependent on him, not on the comforts on this world. This fallen world taught us to worries on matter which is temporal such as  security, job, pleasure and a lot to mention.

Let's have a STEP OF FAITH and get out of our box. If we stay inside, we are limitation God's power and provision on us. Let's learn to take a risk and trust Him. I'm sure he will lead you to a much better place that even you wouldn't expect.

Trust God. I'm sure it's worth  to give it all to Him.

Movie Review: God's Not Dead

"But the LORD is the true God; He is the living God and the everlasting King. At His wrath the earth quakes, And the nations cannot endure His indignation."
 Jeremiah 10:10

3.8 out of 5

This movie got my interest because of my friend who was craving (yes, craving is the word) to watch this movie. She really jumped high out of extreme happiness when we had finished watching the film (though on the entire film, she don't stop blabbing and talking a lot which made me to focus more on the movie). But I'm really glad she pushed me to watch this film.

This is actually a good movie, showing the great importance of how we should be concrete to our faith to our Lord and how He was really a living God.

I won't write any spoilers here, just my insights about the film.

It shows that God will still prevail and those who stand firm, holding on to their faith and trust in God will show great changes on those who surrounds them; that God uses our difficulties and endeavors in life as an advantage for us to know Him more and genuinely in our hearts.

It really shows what a faithful servant can do when he obeyed our Great God by not forsaking Him. 

It shows big importance on how God will move despite on the persecutions every believer was facing up too.

However (yes, I have that too), many of you might ask why only at the rate of 3? Why not 5? I don't know, though they show that big revelation, I think there is still something missing though. Maybe a great elaboration of the plot will do.

Still, I will surely recommend this film to everyone out there facing persecution and standing firm for the Lord's glorification.

I'm Sorry

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. - Romans 12: 1 (KJV)

I never felt this empty before. SIN is really a big hindrance to pursue the righteous track. 

Just a short reminder guys, don't be deceived by this world.  

Uncontrollable Delight : Start of My Life Changing Experiences

Hi there guys!

I know that it’s been a long time since I’ve updated my posts here. Almost been a year, right? And that year was so memorable and very life changing. How could that be?

I’ve seen and experienced many things: happiness, pain, sufferings, persecution, love… FORGIVENESS. Why giving emphasis to the last word? For I know I was being forgiven. By whom? Our great GOD.

I’m quite overwhelmed now and can’t contain myself.

I’ll surely update my post here regularly, sharing my experiences with our Great Creator and Heavenly Father who never fails to always display His power on my life and to the life of the people that surrounds me.

May God Bless each and every one of you.